Melancholy: Depression of spirits; a gloomy state continuing a considerable time; deep dejection; gloominess.
I am in a melancholy state. Is it the weather.....the lack of sunshine one should find in the months of "summer"....perhaps. Is it because my vacation is only 2 weeks away and instead of shedding the five pounds I had planned to I have gained five more? Could very well be!
Whatever the reason my melancholy mood will remain hidden from the rest of the world. Why? Because that is what I do. Stemming mostly from being a private person where that area of my life is concerned. Few people know me well enough to see through the "everything's great"! Few of us (I am equally guilty) stop long enough to have a second look and see what is really swirling behind a person's comment. We rarely glance twice as we whiz by asking, "How are you?" Few of us listen well enough to hear when someone is saying they are not. Again...I am just as (perhaps abundantly so) guilty as the next person.
But really, what is there to say when some problems cannot be fixed and you simply don't feel like telling the whole world. I have never been that person to emotionally vomit all over someone else. I like to be there for my friends, but don't have the patience for people who get "stuck"....mired down in things they don't even want to fix. I don't expect it from others.
And so, the weather suits my mood. It is melancholy......as am I. And that is ok with me.
Besides......my trip to Germany (all alone) is just around the corner and sure to lift any mood I am in!
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